January 25, 2000

I need a challenge worthy of my attention.  The days and nights and days are slipping together and I cannot remember which I prefer.  There was a time I felt the pain enough to be alive.  How I envy that point of view!  Bring back the mercies I overpowered.  I need to breathe outside these shelter walls.

I remember happy, content, breathing.  I simply don't remember feeling it slip away so quickly.  Breathe for me a moment.  I need to catch my stardom to believe it. 

Do you understand it at all?