September 1, 1998 later...

okay...i'm better now. i've found vengence in rubbing her nose in the fact that i'm still in a kick-ass mood despite her crap. hangin' out with REAL friends will do that for you...later maybe.

September 1, 1998 8:09 a.m.

yesterday started out to be a great day. i was in the best of moods until, oh, i'd say around 4:00. that's when i was rudely reminded of the incredible immaturity that surrounds me. so, i've been hanging out with someone's ex. big deal. at least i don't see what the big deal is. it isn't as though she's a great friend of mine or anything, so what do i care how she feels about it? i don't. she was a handy babysitter for a time, but that's the extent of it, it think. what really gets me, though, is when other people are pulled into this...this...upset she's created over it all. she'll be incredibly happy to know, however, that all that damage she planned on with one of my real friends hasn't really happened. maybe a little, but not like she wanted when she told him all the bullshit she shovels. that almost makes up for the fact that she ruined my good mood yesterday. i guess i really should be concerned that i've jeapordized--no demolished--what she may have once thought was a valuable friendship. well, to borrow the words of a friend...i guess i'm devastated. actually, my only concern now is who she's planning to "update" next on this false life she seems to have given me of late. gzzz! get over it already. well if you want to know how i really feel, click here.

anyway, i've much more important things to deal with at the momemt. no time for her silly games (which she really is good at by the way). i'm thinking by this time next week, i'll be on the road back to new mexico or wherever because things out here just don't seem to be working like they should. really, i've already started packing some things. ah, i probably won't go, but it's a thought. i have all these things to worry about. i'm unemployed. i have financial responsiblities i need to meet. serious responsibilities, like rent and school and kids. not to mention i get pretty restless when i'm jobless. it doesn't feel right to me when all my time isn't occupied. well, it'll all work out in the end. in the meantime, do me a favor would you? keep away from immature people. they'll ruin your whole damn day.